
before I even start writing i've decided to put a smile on, why not. enjoyed last nights training but as always ended up as a collosal bull in the kumite session, I doubt i'll ever figure out this too strong business or relax or less is more or any infinite number of do's and don't that make karate what it is, so i've decided (no i'm not stopping) I am what I am 42 years of being big will not change over night so just enjoy every session as I do, if things change good but if I stick to as I am for the next few years well thats ok too. I've made great friends within the club, they know how I am and maybe by me accepting where I am at the moment instead of trying so hard to be the karateka I think I should be then this relax business might just click.