PS - Dark Lord - you had a childhood problem you mentioned in class today, care to expand ?
Aye, OK
When I was small (6 or 7), I contracted a rare blood disease (it's name consisted of all the letters of the alphabet!) which made my glands swell and did something to my legs. I could not walk. So I used to drag myself around the house with my arms and trip people up
I cannot recall a lot of the things, which is unusual for me, and I don't remember when I got the feelings back in my legs, all I do remember is having a lot of bloods taken and visiting the hospital a lot (the C&A then), which left a deep psychological scar which means that I am still scared of hospitals today.
I know that after this episode, that I was very clumsy for years, and used to trip over my own feet, but, thankfully after a few years training, I got my balance and coordination back.
So there we have it.
Sharon, please do not be dishartened, even now after twenty five odd years training, I still go home some nights and think exactly like you do, it's only natural, and lets be honest, those who do not self critisice are the ones that do not progress, and usually give up.